Would me at 8 years old be proud of me at 30?

I hope so…

There is a reason why I´m writing this today: I´m feeling like a failure and because of this feeling I started to think how far I´ve come , all the things I achieved and how me with 8 years old would feel about it...

I notice that I was letting my creativity go down, I was writing less, was doing less creative things. That made me remember of how I was when I was a kid.

I was so creative, so happy, so stress free…and now I´m not any of those things.

I started to think of all the path that I walked in this 30 years of life and how much my life had changed.

When I was 8 years old I was living in a house in the city center in a small city in Brazil, going to a catholic school, playing with dolls and writing poems & short stories.

My life was so happy.

Simple.

My hair was natural, I was living with my mom and my grandma and my uncle and cousins were my neighbors.

My life was basically this word cloud:

I remember that I wanted to be a doctor or a lawyer or a writer or a veterinary. I was so not focused that I could change what I want to be all the time. It was ok, I was a kid! :)

Today I´m 30 years old, I´m not a doctor or a lawyer or a veterinary, but I´m still a student.

I have less friends but they are the best ones, people I know that I can trust.

I don´t eat sugar anymore and I respect more my lactose intolerance. I don´t sleep a lot and my life is basically my PhD.

My life now is basically this word cloud :

Today I think that me at 8 years old would be proud of me because I still write my poems & short stories, I still watch cartoons, dance and do some childish things.

At the same time, I think that the child me would be worried: I´m less happy, less creative, less “out of the box”.

I guess that the reflection was good for me in order to see things that I can improve on myself and try to get in touch with my essence that is so buried inside me.

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